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mari19ian
May 26, 20241 min read
Abandoment fear
For sure something I have worked with and experienced a lot. Comes from early days and years and is something not uncommon looking at...
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mari19ian
Feb 26, 20241 min read
Codependency cycle
I have written about codependency in the past, as in a way my attempts to avoid conflict/ mediate conflict lead to a cycle in which I end...
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mari19ian
Feb 13, 20241 min read
Taking responsibility for own part
Taking responsibility and having awareness to the contribution to a situation and relationship is required for improvement of future...
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mari19ian
Jan 29, 20242 min read
Stories and open the eyes
In the weekend I re-read a book- Zuleikha open your eyes- that marked a huge impression on me several years ago. Felt then, that I was...
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mari19ian
Jan 18, 20241 min read
Betrayal wound-trauma
I have experienced betrayal trauma by myself and up to recently I could not have named it and represent in a nutshell dissociating from...
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mari19ian
Jan 15, 20241 min read
Inequality
Life is not equal, and some stories are more tragic or traumatic than others, as also more joyful and happy than others. Humans have...
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mari19ian
Jan 3, 20241 min read
Leaving as a personal defeat
There were situations in my life when leaving was required ( situations that run their course, job requirements that did not fit,...
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mari19ian
Jan 1, 20242 min read
Happy New 2024!
And all my best wishes with and for the new year that has just started. I haven't been posting in a while, not on purpose actually. For...
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mari19ian
Nov 23, 20231 min read
Labels and acceptance
This post is connected to my previous one, why do we care for approval? maybe because in my case I label myself as something that gives...
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mari19ian
Nov 13, 20232 min read
Hell is other people? or is it?
One of my favorite reads is No exit by JP Sartre from where the quote Hell is other people originates. Is the story of interaction/...
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mari19ian
Nov 6, 20232 min read
Safety, fear and revenge
I saw some days ago a small documentary about a senior cat. She was abandoned after her owner died, was mistreated and eventually after 1...
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mari19ian
Oct 16, 20231 min read
Abundance as a state of being
Somehow somewhere in my upbringing abundance overlapped with wealth and success with achievement. And even wealth is a part of abundance...
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mari19ian
Oct 1, 20232 min read
Authenticity and avoidance
A number of my posts were about pain, kind of getting to know when was there and be less afraid of it, to accept its presence as a guest...
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mari19ian
Sep 18, 20232 min read
Spirit animal oracle and a closing of a cycle
For like two weeks now I have been more attracted to a spirit animal oracle that I was very fond of like two years ago, but somehow did...
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mari19ian
Sep 3, 20231 min read
New beginnings
Sometimes new beginnings feel like endings, and that was a strong feeling that I had this week, while moving to a new location and job....
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mari19ian
Aug 21, 20231 min read
Sun and vacation
Sometimes all I need is sun, and was great to spend some days on vacation in Spain, in a beautiful city with an amazing architecture and...
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mari19ian
Jul 30, 20232 min read
Perception
Again I haven't posted anything in a while, but guess was just slightly busy with life in a way. Nevertheless my post is not about that,...
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mari19ian
Jul 6, 20232 min read
Feeling left out
A very interesting contradiction about me is that I can feel triggered about being left out even I am in the same time rather independent...
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mari19ian
Jun 25, 20232 min read
That is whom I am
Heard this statement, said this statement. And feels true and right and maybe is not. Because maybe I am not everything I think I am and...
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