mari19ian3 days ago2 minStories, needs and changeStories are those imaginary scenarios that I make about some future situations outcomes. Sometimes stories can also be about the past...
mari19ianMay 91 minShame, guilt and not being enoughProbably this is the title of my healing journey, as the feeling of guilt and being something wrong with me were deeply connected. And...
mari19ianApr 261 minJourneyHave not posted much lately, the reason for it I felt and still feel that I reached the end of cycle and I am on the verge of a new one....
mari19ianApr 111 minHome- looking for homeIn a discussion last week the question - what did you run from or to- was asked related my moving pattern. On top that I actually I enjoy...
mari19ianMar 282 minLies we tell to ourselvesThere are plenty and they are called justifications and reasoning, but not about that I want to talk in this post. Something deeper at...
mari19ianMar 212 minDetachmentFor an anxious when triggered habitual reaction that I have, reading about detachment and the saviour-persecutor-victim cycle has been a...
mari19ianMar 143 minFear part nI wrote quite a few posts about fear, and I have met fear in my own healing process, that to explain it I see it as a return to peace and...
mari19ianMar 92 minRespect, enough and taking decisionsNot having much in common, the only common trait of the two words is that I have felt what they really mean to me only recently. I have...
mari19ianMar 12 minSpring and new beginningsSpring is in the air, not really mostly wishful thinking, but have been several sunny days and the first spring flowers are already here....
mari19ianFeb 211 minCompliance vs authenticityOne of the things I have been struggling and found hard to see was compliance. In situations where I do not meet other people...
mari19ianFeb 82 minFlow of life and place in lifeLife is like a river, taking you on a journey of discovery, not a direct path and not a logical A to B consequence. A river that has...
mari19ianFeb 31 minWhat you seek is seeking you - RumiAnd in order to find and be found you need trust, trust you are enough and what you bring to the table is enough. These days I am in...
mari19ianJan 201 minOnly for todayWhen I learned the reiki principles I wondered why they start with just for today or only for today. Why one day at a time?Until I ended...
mari19ianJan 121 minFeeling victimized or the role we play in our sufferingFeeling victimized can be an active choice and that brings power in a subtle way, power coming from getting help because the others might...
mari19ianJan 81 minControl and trustControl and trust, especially self trust are antagonist. This blog has been dwelling in my journey with control, that was a large part of...
mari19ianJan 71 minFreedom and choiceThe most frequent element in my tattoos are feathers. I did not think much of it when individual tattoo choices were made, but later on I...
mari19ianDec 31, 20213 minOn the way to 2022I am grateful for 2021. Was an uncomfortable and empowering ride. Started with a total fit in persona- mask, happy, optimist, never...
mari19ianDec 17, 20212 minRebirth and getting comfortable with the uncomfortableRebirth A caterpillar is reborn as a butterfly. An old dysfunctional pattern of unworthiness dissolves and from its ashes, a healthy...
mari19ianDec 2, 20212 minIt's ok to not be okReading through my page I realized a lot of it was about trauma healing and connecting to my emotions. And this has been the underlying...
mari19ianNov 26, 20211 minControl and freedomI used to feel afraid and small in the face of control and tight defined expectations, acceptance, rules and life in my childhood. I...